May 2013
19 posts
I'm sorry for...
Being annoying because I want to talk to you.
Being needy because I miss you.
Being emotional because I care about you.
Being insecure because I’m afraid to lose you.
1: post a selfie?
2: do you wear makeup? what makeup do you put on?
3: do you prefer dark or light haired guys/ girls?
4: what's your favorite song at the moment?
5: what was the last song you listened to?
6: do you have a tumblr crush?
7: who is your tumblr crush?
8: what are you doing right now?
9: do you have any siblings?
10: what's you ethnicity?
11: what's your favorite subject in school?
12: what's your favorite color?
13: what's your favorite sports team?
14: what's your favorite ice cream flavor?
15: when did you make your tumblr?
16: how many followers do you have?
17: do you like where you live?
18: is your room super messy or really clean?
19: do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
20: do you prefer pens or pencils?
i never really liked
my name
much
until i found out
what it tastes like
when you sigh it
into my
mouth
I'll answer 100% honestly.
Have you ever:
1) Self-harmed? yes
2) Gotten into a real fight? yes
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? oh yes
4) Tried to commit suicide? perhaps.
5) Had to lie to everyone about how you felt? oh, god yes.
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? no...
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? HELL YES
8) Accused someone of using you? yup.
9) Shoplifted? nope.
10) Gotten drunk/high? D-runk.
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?- yes and it was Fuck-tastic.
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? yeah
Right now, are you:
13) Suicidal? if i feel this way a little longer, i could.
14) Bored? not too bad.
15) Avoiding someone? nah.
16) Avoiding some task? homework.
17) Depressed? a bit.
18) Crying? no.
19) Annoyed with a friend? nope.
20) Worried and confused about something important to you? nope.
Do you:
21) Get depressed easily? yes.
22) Get jealous/envious easily? no. my boyfriend loves me.
23) Feel like listening to music can take your mind off things? not anymore.
24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? not really.
25) Try hard in all your classes at school? yup!
26) Go out drinking? hiding and drinking.
27) Smoke cigarettes? e-cig now.
28) Smoke weed? never.
29) Do any hard drugs? never.
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, why? havent. but ive said yes to 22. and no to 25.
31) Believe in God/belong to a religion of your own free will? no.
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? yup.
33) Agree that self-harm numbs emotional pain? i dont know.
34) Believe people deserve second chances? no all people.
36) Think things will get better? not often.
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? all the time.
38) Judge people who think differently to you? no.
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
39) Long hair or short hair? long.
40) Nice smile or nice abs? both.
42) Shy or open? both.
43) Eyes or body? more eyes.
44) Religious or non-religious? either.
45) Caring or non-restricting of you? a medium.
47) Piercings or no piercings? either.
48) Tattoos or no tattoos? TATTOOS.
49) Quiet stay-at-home type or party type? both.
50) Has friends you get along with or has parents you get along with? both!
Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? yes.
52) Smoke weed? no.
53) Smoke cigarettes? yup.
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? no.
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? unfortunately.
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? yes.
57) Keep your faith no matter what? unfortunately.
58) Join a band as a part-time activity? yea.
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? yes.
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone goes against them? yes.
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what it's like? if i could.
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? yes.
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? if i knew how.
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? no.
66) Not like someone simply because your friend didn't like them? no.
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? yea....
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? yea....
69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes, then which part of you?....
70) Sleep naked? yes.
fakeesmiles-hiqhhopees:
I may not know how to count calories for everything I eat, but I do know I eat too many of them..
which is why I am fat.
Poem.
Silent screams follow me. Breaking my soul. Filling my ears. Covering my eyes from the truth.
Drowning.
April 2013
193 posts
Summer Lovin': Dear Anon, →
summertimee-fineee:
I want to be confident. I want to be skinny. the image I create of myself isn’t a positive one, and i want to change it. I want to be able to wake up in the morning excited for school, I want to walk down the halls without feeling the anxiousness that I’ve been feeling, I want someone to call me…
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Feeling self conscious today.
Normal teenager: sneaking out of the house at 1 AM
Me: sneaking out of my bedroom to get a bag of cheetos and making myself a sandwich at 1 AM
